Hello loved ones! So the time has arrived, and has arrived very quickly. This will be my last email sent from the mission… que loucura.
This week was full of emotions, of fear and excitement and sadness (lots of goodbyes and tears, tears tears tears tears) and hope and joy and gratitude and love. Full of reflection about my mission and about the goodness of God. I cannot even hope to put into words all that I learned and felt and experienced and suffered and grown here on the mission; “I cannot express the smallest part of what I feel” (Alma 26:16).
But, I can say that the decision to serve a full time mission for the Lord was the best decision I have ever made in my life, and will ever make, I think.
I would like to list all of the things I learned here on the mission but today it would take ten years, so I’ll just say a few:
-The glory and goodness of God
-The power of prayer
-How to truly worship (through scripture study, through church attendance, through prayer, through fast, through obedience to the commandments of a loving and caring Heavenly Father)
-How to recognize the whisperings of the Holy Ghost
-The very real and capacitating power of the Atonement of Jesus Christ
-Who God and Jesus Christ truly are; I came and am still coming to know them, and I think that is the best of all; that is life eternal, right? To know God the Father and His son, Jesus Christ.
I testify with all of my heart and soul and being, in a way that I, personally, could never have testified without my mission, that God is our loving Heavenly Father who knows me and loves me perfectly, and knows what is best for me, and He will do what is best for me if I simply trust Him. That Jesus Christ is our Savior and Redeemer, and He is and will forever be my Master, that He lived and suffered and died and was ressurrected for me, and that I can draw divine power from His grace. That prayer is powerful, that God talks to us through the Book of Mormon, that the presence of the Holy Ghost, made accessible to us through the sacrament, is the best recompense of obedience that we can receive, that it is his presence that gives us hope and joy and peace and strength. That we need only make the decision to trust and obey and keep going, and the grace and help will come. I know that this is the only living, true church of Jesus Christ on the face of this earth, that Joseph Smith truly saw God the Father and His Son Jesus Christ, that the Book of Mormon is the most perfect and divine and powerful book that exists. I know that if we obey and trust and give our all, even if it’s not perfect, if we recognize our weaknesses and repent and try to be better, we will be forgiven time and time again. The grace of the Atonement of Jesus Christ never runs out, and this grace can mold us and transform us into everything that God wants us to be, which is beyond our wildest imaginations. And all we have to do is love, trust, and obey.
“Therefore, let us glory, yea, we will glory in the Lord; yea, we will rejoice, for our joy is full; yea, we will praise our God forever. Behold, who can glory too much in the Lord? Yea, who can say too much of his great power, and of his mercy, and of his long-suffering towards the children of men? Behold, I say unto you, I cannot say the smallest part which I feel.”
I love you all and I love this gospel, it’s perfect!!!! Please do the right and you will be blessed!!!! Just trust in Him and obey, He loves you so much!!!!
-My last desperate plea as Sister Smith lol
1. Selfie of my last lesson with Adair 😦
2. Heavenly Father blessed my last day in the field
3. A dançinha do Romano
4-8. A series of my lack of strength lol sorry companion beloved
9-10. Suzy and the best present ever11. So there is a tradition here in Brasil that when there is a big event happening in someone´s life, they commemorate by throwing eggs and flour on that person. And so that is what my wonderful branch did to me. And then I went, covered in eggs and flour, and hugged Fifi who was responsible for it all hehe
12. The lovely and perfect branch of Butiá on my last Sunday. The second photo shows how stressed out everyone was because I made them stay in the sun for 10 years hahaha it was worth it
13. Sad goodbyes. The hardest part about the mission
14. HAPPY NEW YEARS CREW
15. My favorite family of all.